[ Walt yells, rising to his feet suddenly and rearing back on Jesse. As he looks at him his expression crumbles and his voice softens. ]
No. Jesse, please. Listen to me. You're getting carried away here. I haven't done anything to you. I'm not hiding in your shadows, torturing you and erasing your memories at night. I'm not....I'm not Chilton.
[ His expression is pleading as he watches Jesse. The truth? Walt debates telling it. Chilton's words come to mind. You tell people the truth you want them to believe because it's the truth YOU want to believe. There's a break in his voice as he closes his eyes. ]
I was here, yes. Sunday night. I wanted to know why you healed my cancer against my will, but I knew you would never tell me the truth. So I sedated you, got you to relax as though you drank a little too much and asked you then. That's it. That's all I did. And I brought you to bed, tucked you in and left. I guess the sedative had a stronger side-effect than I anticipated and you didn't remember it when you woke up. But I didn't outright erase it from your memories, Jesse. I'm not even capable of doing that.
[ He opens his eyes and looks at Jesse. ]
I know it was wrong. And I'm sorry, but I just needed to know why. Why you would condemn me to living a full life when I don't deserve to...
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[ Walt yells, rising to his feet suddenly and rearing back on Jesse. As he looks at him his expression crumbles and his voice softens. ]
No. Jesse, please. Listen to me. You're getting carried away here. I haven't done anything to you. I'm not hiding in your shadows, torturing you and erasing your memories at night. I'm not....I'm not Chilton.
[ His expression is pleading as he watches Jesse. The truth? Walt debates telling it. Chilton's words come to mind. You tell people the truth you want them to believe because it's the truth YOU want to believe. There's a break in his voice as he closes his eyes. ]
I was here, yes. Sunday night. I wanted to know why you healed my cancer against my will, but I knew you would never tell me the truth. So I sedated you, got you to relax as though you drank a little too much and asked you then. That's it. That's all I did. And I brought you to bed, tucked you in and left. I guess the sedative had a stronger side-effect than I anticipated and you didn't remember it when you woke up. But I didn't outright erase it from your memories, Jesse. I'm not even capable of doing that.
[ He opens his eyes and looks at Jesse. ]
I know it was wrong. And I'm sorry, but I just needed to know why. Why you would condemn me to living a full life when I don't deserve to...