[ Jesse's reassurances don't take away feeling utterly exposed, out of control. It's only because of trust that he hasn't yet shoved Jesse away from him, and his fingers bite into Jesse's arms as Jesse's finger begins to press into him.
His body resists against it, his muscles tightening around Jesse's finger, though Jesse resuming jerking him off elicits another quiet groan from Joel while he writhes slightly underneath him. His breathing has picked up, partly from an arousal he can't control, partly from sheer alarm.
He starts pushing himself up onto his elbows to protest. He's never been fucked by a guy before. Being vulnerable to Jesse like that makes him nervous. ]
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His body resists against it, his muscles tightening around Jesse's finger, though Jesse resuming jerking him off elicits another quiet groan from Joel while he writhes slightly underneath him. His breathing has picked up, partly from an arousal he can't control, partly from sheer alarm.
He starts pushing himself up onto his elbows to protest. He's never been fucked by a guy before. Being vulnerable to Jesse like that makes him nervous. ]