[ Joel lets Jesse pull him close, his eyes falling shut. A soft shuddering breath escapes him from how Jesse is stroking him. He's kept everything contained ever since bringing Jesse home from Will's place; he's done nothing except shove away thoughts that keep creeping into his mind and determinedly try to pretend everything is back to normal. Jesse nuzzling up against him, the closeness of him, his familiar scent and his familiar warmth and familiar touch starts causing Joel's resolve to crumble.
Joel's hands fumble underneath Jesse's coat and slide up along his sides and around to his back, and he presses his cheek against Jesse's cheek, another shuddering breath jarring from him. Then he's turning his head to find Jesse's mouth with his own. Joel never usually initiates intimacy and there's almost always a resistance whenever Jesse tries to kiss him. There's even a hint of hesitancy in how he meets Jesse's lips now, but there's also something desperate and longing about it: everything he can't bring himself to say suddenly starting to spill out in the way he crushes his mouth against Jesse's, while his hands grab at Jesse's back, fingers digging in, grabbing at the material of his shirt, all while breathing heavily and muffling a hitched gasp against Jesse's lips. ]
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Joel's hands fumble underneath Jesse's coat and slide up along his sides and around to his back, and he presses his cheek against Jesse's cheek, another shuddering breath jarring from him. Then he's turning his head to find Jesse's mouth with his own. Joel never usually initiates intimacy and there's almost always a resistance whenever Jesse tries to kiss him. There's even a hint of hesitancy in how he meets Jesse's lips now, but there's also something desperate and longing about it: everything he can't bring himself to say suddenly starting to spill out in the way he crushes his mouth against Jesse's, while his hands grab at Jesse's back, fingers digging in, grabbing at the material of his shirt, all while breathing heavily and muffling a hitched gasp against Jesse's lips. ]