You're not hearing me. There's nothing to start. I'm never gonna be some great hero, okay. I'm never gonna be strong enough they can't get rid of me. They've got those people. And I ain't a genius, either. I ain't Tony Stark. I'm not ever gonna be building 'em the best weapons or coming up with strategies or... or whatever! Without the meth, I'm on the chopping block, you understand? Nobody needs me anywhere but the lab. I'm the best chemist in the world and that is it. You put me anywhere else and I'm useless, I'm expendable, I got no leverage. I couldn't even survive in the regular world without that. What am I supposed to do here, where people just disappear once they get used up? If I stop being worth their investment, I am gone.
[He's shaking his head and the rest of him is shaking, too. He's been hiding it - no one's really seen at all except maybe Nill, in glimpses, in his head - but he's terrified. He's more scared of the Initiative than maybe every single person who's talked about rebellion.]
Yeah well, you have some people watching your back just in case they did decide to disappear you, and do you think they'd just say nothing if you suspiciously disappeared?
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Honestly. Find something else to do. Even if you were terrible at it you might hate yourself less. Is it really like you like this?
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[At this point in time, anyway.]
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They want us to like them.
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Besides, I'm handling it. My whole arrangement's working fine.
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