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_“ Hey, it's me. Wait for the thing. _”

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[hostage]

Sometimes it feels like it helps me keep going

But it's just a trick

What it really does is make me crazy enough to think I'm OK

I'm in recovery now I haven't done meth for months

[vaccination]

[She's seen Joel drunk before. It's the only comparison that comes to mind, but even then... Joel still had a line or two he wouldn't cross. Or so Ellie wants to believe.]

steph said i should stay away from you. like forever

[hostage]

Steph's right

[vaccination]

that's stupid and she already knows I'm not going to listen. you've had plenty of chances to do shit to me

[hostage]

I'd never want to

But that's the thing about being crazy right

You're not safe with me

[vaccination]

i don't think you're crazy. crazy is chopping people into tiny pieces and eating them or gunning people down for fun. if I ever get hurt by anyone here it's going to be some random motherfucker on a rampage

[It's the people she doesn't know that scare her.]

[hostage]

You should listen to Steph

[vaccination]

[The one with abandonment issues being asked to abandon someone does not really compute.]

not for this

[hostage]

Please

[vaccination]

nothing's going to happen jesse

[hostage]

You're damn right it won't because you're going to stay away

[vaccination]

you're only being stubborn about this because steph said it first

[hostage]

Think about who Steph is and think about how scared she is of me

Does she seem like the kind of person who gets scared easy?

[vaccination]

i'm pretty fucking sure she'd be afraid of me if she knew some of the things ive done. what i would do

[There comes a point where there's no remorse for killing, and she found that point fairly early on. She would have killed the people that hurt Steph.]

you're my friend. i don't have a lot of those and i'm not cutting one lose over this shit so you're just gonna have to deal

[Selfish? Sure.]

[hostage]

Then you better not think twice about kicking my ass if you ever need to

[vaccination]

that was the rule from day 1. i was pretty scared when i first met you

[hostage]

I'm sorry

[vaccination]

i had just killed a sick fuck that [maybe would have raped her, definitely planned on making her suffer] was going to kill me and probably eat me. strangers still make me nervous.

[It's not much of a confession when she's visibly awkward around new people, even kids around her age like Stan.]

maybe you are nuts but you're not that fucked up. we're probably on the same side of the screwy scale

[hostage]

I wish things were better for you

[vaccination]

I wish things were better for you too. you do a lot for this place and you deserve better than this

[She shouldn't have to come to Jesse to find out the truth about the things people are saying.]

[hostage]

No I deserve this

[vaccination]

why?

[hostage]

Because I'm evil

[vaccination]

[Good thing he can't hear her laugh.]

bullshit. you're not a comic book character

[hostage]

I bet I am, in one of these worlds

I don't even want to know how bad I get